?What is happiness

:Part 1

Believe me, at the end of your life, you will feel a great regret. You have done many things…some of them are bad…others are good…However, All what you have done appears suddenly as a film where everyone was present… except one person: you. Your whole life was in the passive form : the actor simply wasn’t here , he was somewhere else. Yes, I emphasis on the fact that we are living in the passive form, here and now . “Here and now” … this is the place where we aren’t. So where are we now? I don’t know. All what I know is that we are in retreat, witnessing what is happening here and now but without participating: spectators watching a movie. This is why you sometimes feel that you are and aren’t here, you are here because your consciousness is here , you aren’t here because there is a silhouette which is ,somehow, you too . When you insist on the version of the silhouette, in other words, when you say: ‘I am the silhouette, no …it isn’t a silhouette, it is reality. The real silhouette is that one which is present here and now” you feel that you are a stranger here and you live all your life as a stranger. Only When you convince yourself that there is no silhouette behind that you can live the “here and now” as a native nation. Hence, and in all cases, there is a necessity for returning home, either the “here and now” if you’re emphasizing on the “here and now” version of you, or the somewhere" where the silhouette is sitting as a spectator. You" ought to make a serious choice: Are you here and now or somewhere else? Then you should migrate to where you belong. Otherwise, you will live all your life ripped between two places. This should be your ultimate work in life if you want to say, one day before the end, with a tremendous childless joy : “finally…I am home”. I think this is what we call happiness... Happiness is being finally home, after living as a stranger for many years
Personnaly , I am convinced that I am not here , I am that silhouette sitting somewhere .Hence, my goal is to return back to this "somewhere" from where I’ve converged.I should start my journey as soon as possible to that “somewhere”. Diffuclt … a jouney to an unknown station ? whithout a doubt, but necessary and amazing : I am looking for myself , I had missed it somewhere before coming here and now